Go see Little Miss Sunshine
Go read A Million Little Pieces by James Frey
Invent a new game
Go on a blind date
Lay in the grass
Climb a mountain
See the world
Get scared shitless
Jump off a cliff and fly
Invite change
Aug 31, 2006
Aug 11, 2006
Suicide is a funny thing...
I thought this picture was strangely appropriate because a) I finally heard back from Australia and I got accepted, so I'll be shipping out and b) I almost ran over a rabbit last night on my way back up to Red Feather. The stupid thing is completely out of harms way, but then it runs directly out in front of my car and SITS DOWN in the middle of my lane. This bunny had a death wish. Either way, I slowed down but kept driving and as far as I could tell, I drove right over the S.O.B. since I didn't hear a thud. He'll have to try harder next time.
For more suicide bunnies, check this out.
Aug 7, 2006
Euro Flash
I was really planning on putting up some more pictures of my trip to Switzerland on my website, which I may never get up, but my brother finally got some of his own up on his site. Plus, his pictures capture the World Cup craziness a hell of a lot better than any of mine did. Go ahead and check them out through the link on the right side of the page. Also, he has some pretty amazing pics from our trip to Mexico City and his trek to Argentina. Damn he travels a lot, and he's getting ready to go to Philly and then he's gonna teach English in Costa Rica this fall. (Note: Costa Rica isn't an island, like I had thought up until about 25 minutes ago.)
Aug 4, 2006
Point / Counterpoint
AUSTRALIA
Why I have to go to Australia:
The whole "If I go to Australia..." thing is really starting to piss me off and I always start to feel sick whenever I say it now. The fact is, I've been planning my life for the past few months, deadset on going there for school. Now what would happen if I didn't get in? As far as I can see, my life would be a fucking mess: I'd have no place to live, it would be too late for me to get into another school, and for the most part, I'd have to spend the next year working again, probably in Fort Collins, and the fact of the matter is that the city has absolutely nothing to offer me anymore. I've been so set on leaving this place that I can't imagine spending another year of my life idling through the town. If there's a time for me to do something with my life, this is it.
Why I can't go to Australia:
I've never made a decision in my life. As everyone knows me, I can't follow through with anything and it worries me the most that I'll get down there and say "Shit. I don't want to be back at school... I've tried this and I decided that I didn't need school anymore to get through my life." But mostly, as much as the thought of the change intrigues me, it's the kind of change that I'll never really be able to look back from. As much as I hate Fort Collins now, it's always been my home, but once I get in and out of school, there's really going to be nothing there for me anymore. If I go through with getting a music production degree, then I can't come back to this town. There'd be no job for me here. And as much as I want to leave and see the world, I feel like I'm not going to be able to sit down and stop to evaluate my life in the next 5 years, and see if it's what I really wanted to be doing.
Bottom Line:
Even though I never thought I needed to go to college, I've always NEEDED to go to college. Maybe it'll open up new avenues to my life, and without it I know I'm looking at an uphill battle as far as jobs go for the rest of my life. So while I could easily just keep working as I am now, I know it'll never fly, and never make me happy.
Also, just having this choice of getting back to school and out of the country has given me the "No Regrets" attitude on life right now. I don't want to be looking back once I leave (no... IF I leave... fuck) and saying to myself "Damn, I really wish I had done that" or "I really wish I had told that person how I really felt." It gives me a lot of freedom of thought and gives me a fresh look at everything. That I'm thankful for.
LOVE
Why I can never love again:
It sounds like what a neutered dog would say, but I still got my huevos. The thing is, maybe I don't know how to use them anymore. I know I don't say it enough, so here it is again. Lori really fucked me over when she left. I'm not saying I still love her. I'm past her, but for the most part, it still feels like I have a girlfriend. Not really... but basically all I'm trying to say is: It's been so long that now I've forgotten how to start a relationship at square 1. I've forgotten the whole, you know, talking part that usually comes when you meet someone.
Why I will love every person I meet (and therefore, never really LOVE again):
I got two girls phone numbers at the concert I went to a couple weeks ago. I keep sounding like I'm bragging, but it's started to mess me up more than help because now I kinda think it's just that easy. I went to a restaurant tonight and talked to the girl for maybe 5 minutes and thought "Man, I totally could've gotten her number." It's really quite an accomplishment when you don't know your ass from your elbows on what to do with the damn thing. But the point is that every girl I meet now, who shows any kind of interest in me somehow grabs a hold of me, but in doing so, each one eventually becomes less special. It's turning me into the kind of guy I always hated, who'd go through girls like nothing just because it was another place to stick their dick. But don't worry... remember, I don't really know how to talk to girls in the first place anymore.
Bottom Line:
Yeah, I'm a bit of a romantic. We're a dying breed, especially in today's world, but that's why it bothers me that no one puts in the effort anymore. But maybe the effort is exactly the problem. After a two year relationship falls apart, you wonder if you want to go through it all again, when it could all go just as wrong. Of course you do. But here's a little known, but highly speculated fact/quandry about me: I'm still a virgin. Well, maybe I am, it's up for debate. I really don't mind much because it's taught me that everything else is what really matters. Without putting in the effort, even great sex doesn't matter to me. Yeah, I know... "Fag!"
Why I have to go to Australia:
The whole "If I go to Australia..." thing is really starting to piss me off and I always start to feel sick whenever I say it now. The fact is, I've been planning my life for the past few months, deadset on going there for school. Now what would happen if I didn't get in? As far as I can see, my life would be a fucking mess: I'd have no place to live, it would be too late for me to get into another school, and for the most part, I'd have to spend the next year working again, probably in Fort Collins, and the fact of the matter is that the city has absolutely nothing to offer me anymore. I've been so set on leaving this place that I can't imagine spending another year of my life idling through the town. If there's a time for me to do something with my life, this is it.
Why I can't go to Australia:
I've never made a decision in my life. As everyone knows me, I can't follow through with anything and it worries me the most that I'll get down there and say "Shit. I don't want to be back at school... I've tried this and I decided that I didn't need school anymore to get through my life." But mostly, as much as the thought of the change intrigues me, it's the kind of change that I'll never really be able to look back from. As much as I hate Fort Collins now, it's always been my home, but once I get in and out of school, there's really going to be nothing there for me anymore. If I go through with getting a music production degree, then I can't come back to this town. There'd be no job for me here. And as much as I want to leave and see the world, I feel like I'm not going to be able to sit down and stop to evaluate my life in the next 5 years, and see if it's what I really wanted to be doing.
Bottom Line:
Even though I never thought I needed to go to college, I've always NEEDED to go to college. Maybe it'll open up new avenues to my life, and without it I know I'm looking at an uphill battle as far as jobs go for the rest of my life. So while I could easily just keep working as I am now, I know it'll never fly, and never make me happy.
Also, just having this choice of getting back to school and out of the country has given me the "No Regrets" attitude on life right now. I don't want to be looking back once I leave (no... IF I leave... fuck) and saying to myself "Damn, I really wish I had done that" or "I really wish I had told that person how I really felt." It gives me a lot of freedom of thought and gives me a fresh look at everything. That I'm thankful for.
LOVE
Why I can never love again:
It sounds like what a neutered dog would say, but I still got my huevos. The thing is, maybe I don't know how to use them anymore. I know I don't say it enough, so here it is again. Lori really fucked me over when she left. I'm not saying I still love her. I'm past her, but for the most part, it still feels like I have a girlfriend. Not really... but basically all I'm trying to say is: It's been so long that now I've forgotten how to start a relationship at square 1. I've forgotten the whole, you know, talking part that usually comes when you meet someone.
Why I will love every person I meet (and therefore, never really LOVE again):
I got two girls phone numbers at the concert I went to a couple weeks ago. I keep sounding like I'm bragging, but it's started to mess me up more than help because now I kinda think it's just that easy. I went to a restaurant tonight and talked to the girl for maybe 5 minutes and thought "Man, I totally could've gotten her number." It's really quite an accomplishment when you don't know your ass from your elbows on what to do with the damn thing. But the point is that every girl I meet now, who shows any kind of interest in me somehow grabs a hold of me, but in doing so, each one eventually becomes less special. It's turning me into the kind of guy I always hated, who'd go through girls like nothing just because it was another place to stick their dick. But don't worry... remember, I don't really know how to talk to girls in the first place anymore.
Bottom Line:
Yeah, I'm a bit of a romantic. We're a dying breed, especially in today's world, but that's why it bothers me that no one puts in the effort anymore. But maybe the effort is exactly the problem. After a two year relationship falls apart, you wonder if you want to go through it all again, when it could all go just as wrong. Of course you do. But here's a little known, but highly speculated fact/quandry about me: I'm still a virgin. Well, maybe I am, it's up for debate. I really don't mind much because it's taught me that everything else is what really matters. Without putting in the effort, even great sex doesn't matter to me. Yeah, I know... "Fag!"
Aug 2, 2006
Impeaches and cream
I was going to make this post "An open letter to Dubya" to tell him to go see An Inconvenient Truth, since it's probably the only movie that will ever showcase his largest contribution to the world, but after seeing this clip on the daily show, I was so utterly disgusted and offended, I had to show it to all of you, if you haven't seen it already.
Then people comment about it saying "Stupid media... you and your liberal bias. Why are you so disrespectful to our president? I'm a diehard patriot and I love my country and my president.... blah blah blah, blow me..."
The report isn't bias. It's stating what everyone in every country in the world believes to be common courtesy, and here, this bastard can't fucking show any of it. And that's why everyone is disrespectful to him... because he continually kicks every single person in the world in the sack. I'd get pretty tired of it, too, you douche. You're just lucky Blair has so much of that english charm and doesn't shove that fork down your throat. I'm actually appalled.
Then people comment about it saying "Stupid media... you and your liberal bias. Why are you so disrespectful to our president? I'm a diehard patriot and I love my country and my president.... blah blah blah, blow me..."
The report isn't bias. It's stating what everyone in every country in the world believes to be common courtesy, and here, this bastard can't fucking show any of it. And that's why everyone is disrespectful to him... because he continually kicks every single person in the world in the sack. I'd get pretty tired of it, too, you douche. You're just lucky Blair has so much of that english charm and doesn't shove that fork down your throat. I'm actually appalled.
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